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light surrounds me always [Apr. 3rd, 2007|05:23 pm]
spring has brought joy and magic back into my life after a long winter of pain and loss. Ive been feeling so many extreme emotions lately. There is so much..energy in my life right now. so much excitement and anticipation, but also so much being here right now. i am healing myself and by doing this im helping to heal the people around me. its so amazing that i could never put it into words. i sometimes just scream joyfully to myself while i look around me so amazed by what i am creating.
my dad sent me a poem today that he found in my mother's journal and i sat on my porch crying not caring about the kids and dogs and families walking by. it was so beautiful. a gift from my mother. i miss her so much.
the forest is flowering and warm and happy and it shelters me and fills a void that is empty inside of me most of the time. i know more than i know anything else that my purpose here on earth is to work with plants and nature. i feel so connected to the outdoors that its undeniable. it is my love and my life.
i find that everything in my life, the things i love and the things i don't like are so divinely intended and so perfect for what i need to learn. i am grateful for all of the beauties and ugliness because i wouldnt be where i am right now without it all. i am learning so much. does anyone else learn this much? i am blown away. what's new?

really everything is new. everything is changing. i find myself whole perfect and complete. no longer looking outside myself because everything that sustains me is inside and all i have to do is reconnect to that wisdom and strength and it leads me to exactly where i need to go.