||[Dec. 27th, 2006|01:04 pm]
Once again, I reject the desert. my blood runs thin because of the decision
i feel cold, but right in what i have chosen.
the day that i stand on a mesa overlooking pinyon pines
juniper, red rocks
that will be the day that i know i am finally ready
to let go
The desert signifys so much for me.
It is a symbol of freedom from thought
it is a release of schuyler
a release of the heart that no longer belongs to me
I am drawn to Utah because its promise of answers
but right now, maybe the questions haven't even become ready
perhaps im not ready for the questions to have answers.
it makes me so sad.
but my return to olympia has so much beauty and love
this after all was my decision, and no one elses
and so i embrace it, knowing that it was the correct one
the northwest and i don't know how to let go of one another